I did not win the P.O.L contest but my friend did go on to state. She was one of the final three but sadly did not go on to nationals. Our school is epically disappointed but it's still awesome. I think she got a $5000 scholarship for college even though she is only a sophmore.

Chris and I have started talking again and it's going as well as can be expected. The trust isn't there yet but I'm hoping it will be one day. Right now we just take it slow and try to get a firm understanding of our relationship; either friendship or something closer, we don't know yet. He has made it very clear that he will refuse me 100 times over. Although I was the one to break it off he still seems to hold on to the possibility that I want him back.

I bought my new phone on Saturday. Samsung Gravity by T-mobile is now my amazing phone. I have unlimited texting so if any of my buddies out there want to text me, go ahead. Send me a note asking for my number and if I like you enough we can do it. If not then oh well.

Last week I asked Kevin to quit drugs. He said yes and gave most of his weed to his mom's friend. I wanted him to give the rest to his friend and he said maybe. Well yesterday before he was going to call me on the phone he said he was stoned. Yeah that's not ok. Needless to say I wasn't too happy. He didn't call me that night and we haven't really talked about it since then but at least now he doesn't have any more weed in his house. I just hope it will last longer then a week. Am I being too controlling over my boyfriend? I just want him safe and out of jail.

My sister has been screaming non-stop for no fucking reason and it's driving me crazy. How about instead of yelling for our step-mom, she just goes downstairs and quietly tell her the show is on? Is that really too hard to do? She needs to get over herself and get out of the house before she drives my dad even crazier.

I'm done with everything. Everyone please go check out my poems and tell me what you all think. I worked very hard on all of them.